Very few will understand. There is distinct difference between not being able to Love and not being given an opportunity to demonstrate that I DO Love but cannot show it for reasons beyond my control.
Very few will understand what it’s like to have stifled Love or Love that has to be displayed within set parameters for a greater good. Very few will understand that there are real men among us who look on, from behind a glacier of no emotion, wishing they could have that one chance to Love.
There are very few things worse than having Love torn from you. Regardless of blame and reason, it leaves you in a place where you question the very existence of Love. Much less the ability to display it.
I overcame this period in my life by accepting responsibility for my wrongdoings and how I’d hurt others. Then I went through a process of self-forgiveness before opening a door for others to forgive me.
During the period of asking others to forgive me, I went through a raft of emotions as some forgave and others blasted me with the grudge and hate they still held against me. It wasn’t pretty and the period brought me to a next phase that I am still dealing with. I am fearful of letting down those that I Love.
In today’s society, Love has become relative. So has evil…
The subtle messages of The Joker run deep. He and I were the same in many ways.
In my blog yesterday, I mentioned that it is important to remember that we all have a past. Our love eclipses our past but doesn’t eradicate it. We then bathe in the spotlight, created by the corona of humility. I stand in this spotlight daily. I’m no great man. I just want to become Love.
The eclipse signifies a change in character. Our character, in turn, drives the one thing that doesn’t change. Our personality. My personality is still the same. Hard working, competitive, protective, etc.
What is important is this. If you are one to test someone who is trying to eclipse their past, in order to become something better, you run the risk of the past character driving the ever-present personality. If someone guards themselves, and their relationships, in Love, the display of behaviour is different from someone who guards themselves, and their relationships, with an absence of Love.
Be wary how you cast your dice, therefore, because the house may not look pretty if it wins.
You can read my blog about having a #JokerFace here.
Today’s Intagram Poetry prompt, “Eccedentesiast”, reminds me of the place I’ve been leaving, as I work on becoming Love. The journey has been long and arduous but also enlightening, thought provoking and has placed people in my life that I’d never want to lose. It’s also been a journey where I’ve had to say goodbye to some and distance myself from others. I’m glad to share these thoughts and, if you’re one to follow this journey, I hope you find it a blessing.